SHOP!!!!!!!!!!

Do you know what I love about October? I'll give you a hint, it has absolutely nothing to do with Halloween. Give up? Okay, I'll tell you. Christmas gift shopping!!!!

I don't really like Christmas, any holiday really, but I love shopping for others. Once October rolls around all I want to do is online shop and start planning everybody's gifts. I can't walk into a store without looking for gifts. It's even harder now that everybody's at school because I want to send packages soooooo bad. I LOVE SHOPPING!!! (I might have a problem)

Now that Eli's  a factor I spend way too much time in the baby section. I don't really want to get him anything predictable though. He has way to many family members that are going to want to get him toys and junk, and I feel bad for Joy and Josh, I know they're going to get stuff for Eli. I'll have to think about this one. Suggestions?

The rest of my family isn't that hard to shop for. I spend enough time with them that I kind of have that all figured out. I've already bought Title's present. My parents are always hard because they tell me they don't want anything, and I can't afford to buy them a vacation.

Friends are relatively easy, especially if they have a Pinterest. Really though, the hardest people to shop for are Skylar and William because I know them so well. THERE'S TOO MANY IDEAS!!!!!!

GAH! I can't wait to really start Christmas shopping. :D

Church

You know what I really miss? Church. It's weird. I never felt bad in the past when I didn't go or just slept in instead, but I can honestly say I miss it.

The other day a lady came into the Sub-hub and told us that she would pray for us and the place to continue having good business. She was sweet. It shocked Joy which was funny. My immediate response was to get her name and pray for her as well (Oh Robert, you would be so proud). Joy's was to shout "WHAT!?! Oh MY GOSH!! That's so sweet of you. Thank you." It was rather funny. But I guess that it is an unusual thing for some random person to offer their prayers for you.

There's a family that comes into the Sub-hub and before they eat they all pray together. Heads down eyes closed and holding hands. It's really cute because they have two  younger girls and they just sit quietly until they say Amen. If it wasn't all sorts of creepy and rude I would sneak a picture of it.

I went to church last week, and while it was awkward because I wasn't with the Padia's, I still really enjoyed going. I missed Paul's sermons and the friendly faces that greet you. I missed Daniel and even Andy. I'm working on a invasion of Youth Group so I can see Robbie, Stacy, and Cole.

This morning my Grandma took me to church so she could pray for my safety as I drive. That one was weird even for me. Still, I went and she prayed, said a short Rosary, and lit a candle. I was nice to know she cares so much. I could have done without the crying though.

This is my grandma pouring Holy Water on my car.

Cleaning and organizing

Today I spent the day doing something I love. Cleaning and organizing. YUH!

I got bored of the way everything was placed, and with the weather getting colder I wanted my bed to be under the window so I can make the most out of my nest and watch the trees change.

 

Here it is!!!

Yes I do sleep with the six pillows, body pillow. and pina colada. That's why I call it my nest. Also, don't judge my Minnie Mouse blanket. I love her. We're practically sisters.

  

Meet Antwiniqua, Shanequa, Landesha, and Tom.

Title found these dolls under my bed and decided that they needed ghetto names.... -__- My sister is so dumb.

 

The delicious ice-cream, from Skylar and William, that i rewarded myself with at the end of the day :D

No doctor for me

Who gets sick when they don't have to go to school and want to hold a precious baby? Me. Life is a joke. I have a cold... I think... You know why it's not a positive thing? Because I WILL NOT go to the doctor.

Let me tell you something, doctors are scary. True story. I would rather die than go to the doctor. Now that I'm 18 I get to make that decision myself. :) So I have decided to treat my cold with Theraflu (thank you Becky Padia for that introduction), cough drops, tea, sleep, and lots of ice-cream. YUH!!

Lets hope I get better soon. If not, Skylar Padia gets first pick of all my stuff. Also she, and few others, get to decide what to do about the funeral and other after death stuff.

In other news, BOARDERLANDS 2 is coming out very soon!!!!!!!! GAH so excited :D :D :D :D


LOVE Y'ALL
-ME (Crystina)

Sometimes you just have a poopy couple of days. That's when you hide in your room and hope for a better tomorrow.

Also, baby elephants. :D

Maggie!!!

This weekend I went on an epic adventure, with Ariel (I would like to take this moment to thank her a million times for driving 10 hours there and back) and Jena, to visit Maggie.

 

Who wouldn't miss this face?

It was pretty awesome. I missed her face terribly, and it was nice to have her actually around to referee and laugh at Jena and me. We toured her campus (it's very pretty), played with kitties, caught tadpoles, painted our nails, and pretty much just hung out and had fun.

It was kinda cool to see how college has started to shape her and how much she loves it. I wouldn't blame her. The campus is pretty, there are fountains to play in, cats roam around, her dorm is pretty nice, there are cool people around, and she has a balcony that is awesome to sit on in the morning. Once you get past the hot rooms and the drunk people racing each other at 1 in the morning, I'd say it's a fun place to live.

Can't wait until I get to see you again! It kinda makes me wish I could go visit all of my friends. Hope you all know I'm thinking of you and missing you.

LOVE Y'ALL!!!

ASL

Today a couple came in the sub-hub while we were really busy. When they got to the register I was in the zone, and then the guy started to sign at me. I don't know why, but I was petrified. I eventually got back in the zone and started to sign to him.

He was really excited and it made me happy, but I was so nervous I was shaking. He was really sweet and when his wife came back over he was telling her how excited he was that I could sign. It made me feel really good, and it made me really miss ASL. Then I rung him up wrong.... but that's not the point.

The point is that I miss ASL and I need to get back into the swing of signing.

YUH!!!

Crystal Euphoria

I've been working a lot more hours lately because school started and I'm the only person that isn't going. Normally this wouldn't bother me because it's not like my job is particularly hard, but I'm now working mornings. This is really my problem. I hate waking up before 10. I can do it, and honestly I'm very chipper about it, but once I've been up for a couple of hours I'm cranky and bitter for the rest of the day.

This does not turn out to be a good thing when I have to work two 9 hour shifts back to back, and then get up on the third day to work 11:30-4. I'm so cranky that I don't even know what to do with myself. I get home around 9 pm, eat something fast, curl up in bed, and wait to fall asleep. That's right I have to wait to fall asleep because I'm still not able to sleep like a normal human being. Then I have to get up at nine to be at work at 11:30.

Life is a joke.

Skylar Padia this is where I realized I miss you a lot a lot. I happen to depend on you knowing whats going on and then telling me to suck it up because I'm the one who chose to work these hours. I know that you'd tell me to ask for less work or quit. You'd also be here to tell me that I'm being a huge bitch to everybody that I come across and I need to get myself in check before I do/say something I'll regret. SEE, I know what you'd say, it's just not the same without you actually here to tell me.

I'm going to have to start parenting myself.... Oh GOD, I'm going to lead my self down the road of sex, drugs, and seclusion. (Is it really seclusion if I'm going to have to be around people to have sex and know a drug dealer?) Welp! way to go, you left and now I'm going to have to become a delinquent with no hope of a future.

That's me is a few years. I'm with my dealer, Spike. We do drugs on the weekend together because we have nothing better to do and I get free crack out of it. Sweet :D



LOVE Y'ALL,
ME (formally Crystina, but now called Crystal Euphoria on account of me liking the sex and drugs)

High School

I've had a lot of people ask me if I miss high school, or really just school in general. I must say, NOT AT ALL!!!

I've come to learn, from my siblings and talks with other babies, that DHS has gone even farther down the crapper. They have colored parking lots now and the teachers have taken over what was once the student parking lot. Mr. Fredrick is now the special ed teacher (I find this hilariously awesome). Kontz isn't really as important as she use to be. No frontal hugging (WTF?). Also, I hear the pep rallies suck even more than they used to. This all makes me very happy that I got out when I did.

But in all seriousness, I really don't miss it. It's not even because I don't have classes or homework. I really can't explain how I feel. I just know that I don't miss it. I know I will later, but for right now I'm really enjoying not having to worry so much.

With that being said, I do miss all of my friends. I'm still getting used to looking at the parking lot and not seeing Anna's car. After school I see new kids walking down the street and I'm like "who the crap is that?" When I see people on the dock my first reaction is to get angry because I don't know most of them and they're on MY Dock. It's just getting out of that mind set that's going to take me a while. Soon they're all just going to turn into annoying high school kids that wont cross the street fast enough, and I'll want to run them over.

I'm really happy for everyone that's in college right now. I love reading about all of your classes and adventures that you've already had. It's comforting to know that nobody has had a melt down yet or anything. I wish y'all the best of luck this semester.


LOVE Y'ALL
-ME! (Crystina)

7 -_-

A couple of days ago I had a few people ask me if I had lost weight. One of them was Daniel's grandmother so her input is a little iffy, no matter how sassy and cute it was. The other two were Alex M. and my grandmother. So I guess I really do look like I've lost weight because my grandmother never gives compliments unless she means them. In fact you're more likely to get "mija that shirt looks a little small. Maybe you need to lose weight." No joke, one time her exact words were "Tina, you and Title are getting too big, you need to start exercising. I want my grand-daughters to be healthy." I was 14!!! Way to make your grand-daughter feel awesome at an already horrible stage in life. -__-

ANYWAY, I digress...

So I was feeling pretty good about myself for the past couple of days, until I got on a scale today. Turns out I've gained 7 pounds. Just ew. I don't understand how I look like I've lost weight. Crazy old people and Alex.

Maybe I should join Title in her animal run... I just hate running a lot. Really, I'm more of a couch and potato chip kind of person. Exercise is stupid. Oh well I'll figure out something... At times like these I turn to pinterest for fun ideas.

Ok it's back to work for me, but I thought that I'd end on a happy note because this has just been a lot of complaining. So I give you the funniest thing I've seen all day XD

LOVE Y'ALL!
-ME (Crystina)

clean

SCHOOL STARTED!!!!! You know what that means? It means that on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday I get the house to myself!!!!! Kids are at school, parents at work, an I'm enjoying my days off :D. So what am I doing?

MAKING A LIST!!! I actually do this a lot. Ask anybody that knows me, I'm lazy and forget things way to easily. Lists help me. As you can see I've already started the list and hopefully I get most of it done today. I'll keep  you posted on that.

I also started cleaning off my walls. Ive decided to move around my room again and I felt like the stuff on the walls shaped where things went, so I'm starting fresh.

     BEFORE

AFTER     

Turns out you shouldn't glue things on your wall because they wont come off easily. Wish somebody told me that 5 years ago. Oh well, I'll just work on that Wednesday.

          Just a few of my favorite letters and pictures            

There is now a huge pile of letters and pictures that I need to go through in a corner on my dresser. I think I'll save all of that for a day later down the road. I have a couple of ideas for them, but I'm not sure how to go about picking which ones to use.

As for my list...

I didn't finish all of it. I'm ashamed to say that I got distracted by online shopping and Amateur Surgeon 2 for a couple of hours. But still, I got a lot more done than I would have if I had followed through with my original plan to just stay in bed and sleep all day.

WELP! That's it for the day. The kids came home for school and destroyed my quite and when my parents told me I couldn't stick them outside for a few more hours I gave up. I feel rather accomplished though :) Tomorrow it's a 9 hour work day... yay -_-

Love y'all
-ME (Crystina) 

Just to let you know

...I changed the template of my blog because I get bored easily.

I'm reorganizing my room and taking everything off my walls, so tomorrow's post should be interesting. That's right, I'm promising you and update tomorrow! With pictures and sentimental memories.

OK, I'm doe for the night. I'm going to try and sleep. Nightnight!!!

Thoughts 1

These past couple of weeks I have been doing a lot of thinking. I've been thinking about my friends and family and life and myself. Most of my musing has led me to some big decisions. And others have just thrown me down a path of more questions and thoughts.

I think it's time that I let everybody know my biggest decision so far. I'm not going to college. There, I said it and it's in the open now. Don't worry I'm not going to waste my life sitting around watching tv and eating. I'm going to work for a semester and then go to college. I had been thinking a lot about the plans that I had for my college life and I quickly came to the realization that I had none. I didn't have a plan for a major, I didn't have any desire to apply for FASFA, I didn't even want to think about living on campus, an I didn't want to worry about actually doing my work.

Ever since I started thinking about college I had said that I wanted to take time off before going. I think the only reason I applied us because all of my friends were and they were telling me to as well. I know this isn't a bad thing, at least you weren't pleasuring me into the hard meth, but honestly that's the only reason I applied.

Then I followed through with trying to pick a major because everybody else was. I decided I was going to live in a dorm, even though I had no desire to and I knew I could stay at home for free, because everybody else was looking at dorms. I just followed behind everybody else.

However, over the summer I didn't spend too much time thinking about college and the less time I spent on it the less I like the idea of going. Not because I'm scared or because I found a little freedom. It was more because there wasn't anybody to push me through my decisions and tell me what they thought I should do. It was then that I realized what was happening. I was just going through the motions like a puppet and I don't think that's right.

I think college isn't right for me until I decide to get up and apply for classes and FASFA myself, without people telling me that I need to. Once college starts I won't have my friends to push me to study or go to class or manage time. I'll be totally responsible for that myself and I'm not ready for that.

Why start freshman year of college avoiding classes and wasting $8,000 because I failed my first year? I'd much rather go in ready to learn and take care of things myself.

So, I'm going to stay home this semester and work. I'll save the money that I'm not using on bills and when the time comes move out. I'll help my mom with taking the kids to school and I'll pull more hours at the sub-hub so Josh can have real father time with his child. I'll also go insane from staying in my parents house and still having to live by their rules. I'll want to kill my siblings and I'll want to stay out of the house as much as possible. I honestly think this is the kind of push I need.

My dad says I'm not allowed to stay out of college for more than a year and honestly I don't plan on it. I just need a little time to figure my shit out and then I'll jump into that pool head first. Don't fret my lovelies I'm not killing my future I'm just letting it sit on the side lines and learn from the game before sending it out into the cold harsh world (it's late. So just... Don't judge and pretend that made sense or whatever).

With that I leave you for the night.

LOVE,
Me! (Crystina)

People

Sometimes a person that you hardly ever talk to can make you feel better faster than the closest person to you.

True story.

Decisions

Some times when you grow up you have to make some hard decisions. -_- I hate growing up. The past week has brought me some difficult life questions and I'm having to figure out the answers all by myself. Unfortunately in the process of figuring out the answers I've learned some things. A.) you can't all ways get what you want. B.) you might realize what you wanted wasn't actually what you wanted, then your life gets flipped upside down(story for another day). 3.) you can't please everybody. And D.) sometimes the people that you are pleasing are not really the people that matter most.

So.... Decisions have been made and people need to be told some things. :/ I'm not excited about this. If I turn up missing somebody has either killed me or I am in hiding so I don't get killed.

UGH!!! Ok time to put on my big girl panties and get down to decision number uno.


P.S. Goodbye world, it was fun.

Growing up

Oh my gosh, my birthday is next Friday! I didn't even realize that it was that close. Is it sad that I'm going to be turning 18, but I really haven't even thought about it? In fact, I'm more worried about how I'm going to beat last years birthday present to Jackson (Who is not helping me at all with ideas). I mean I got him a freaking turtle last year. HOW DO YOU TOP THAT?!?!?

12 days. That's all I have. Hm. I don't feel like its all that big of an accomplishment really. So I'll be a legal adult in all of America. Yay jail! Yay being able to buy cigarettes (even though I don't smoke and everybody that I know that does smoke can buy their own). Yay not needing parent/legal guardian permission (please, I've been forging signatures for years). Yay tattoos (afraid of needles). I can vote, open a checking account (that would actually be helpful), get married, and get divorced.

So yeah.... 18. Maybe I'll feel differently after the birthday magic happens. Eh, I'll keep you posted on that one.

Oh well. I hope Jackson and Sam feel more optimistic about their 18th. :)

In other news, yesterday was fabulous! I forgot how awesome my aunt nancy and uncle jimmy are. I actually had a wonderful time at their house and I even got to hold baby Eli :D He is so cute! I've decided that I like him. He's pretty chill. He just sits around and stares at things, he's quite an observer. He also doesn't really cry, and when he does he gives you plenty of warning so you can pass him back to his mother. So yeah, I like him. I'm pretty sure he likes me back because I don't fuss over him or talk to him like he's a dog and he fell asleep in my arms. SO STINKING CUTE!!!


Alrighty, I'm done for the night. Adios <3

Pessimism and the night sky

So I have officially decided what I am going to do with this blog. Kudos to me for only needing a day to decide. :)

So I'm just gonna work on this through out the day. I learned how to use the app for this on my phone so I'm just going to type when I get a free chance and publish it at the end of the day. Lame? Yes, but at least I'm making an effort. One day when I actually have an exciting life this might be an exciting blog. Until then, bear with me.

Work is slowly making me want to kill myself. Not because I have to do work, but because people suck. That's right, my typical outlook on life works everywhere! People suck, and they will screw you over. (can you tell I'm a pessimist?) Really though, people suck. Josh know this too! So I go in with this mind set and Joshua is there to join in the pessimistic fun. I know it's not healthy, why do you think all of my friends are optimists? (bet you've never noticed that before) It's because I know a pessimistic attitude is not a good thing for the soul! Add in another pessimist with a restaurant full of crappy people and what do you get? Poison. Oh well it's the price you pay to make money and not have to be in a loud house.

Oh a happy note, I LOVE the night sky. Especially during the summer months. It's fun to lay on the trampoline and look up, or go for a walk. Tonight feels like a star gazing night.

Thanks for putting up with my ranting!!! <3

HEY.....

HEY!!!!!!!! I'm back :D

Ok lets be honest, nobody really expected me to keep up with this thing. I'm a lazy person who loves to procrastinate and sleep. However, I have decided to be a good(ish) BBF and try this thingy out again. FOR REAL this time!! that's right Skylar Padia, you are the sole motivation behind this blog, feel special.

LETS BLOG!!!!!!!!!

...What should I blog about? Life (my life is really depressing right now), love (I'm a pessimist), fitness (hahahaha!!), photography (I'm not Anna or Ariel, the best you'll see is the few attached pictures).

Alrighty then, blogging isn't really my strong suit. It's cool! I'll just snoop on other people's blogs and we'll see where that gets me :)

hokay! BYE

P.S. I'm aware of the hideous mess that is my blog's design. I'll get to that, eventually.

READY, SET..... START

So unfortunately I'm not a good writer, also I'm a horrible speller. (That's right, I'm setting your expectations low from the beginning!!) However, I have cracked under the enormous weight of my friends peer pressure and I too have created a blog. We'll see how well this works out...

                                 OK!! DAY ONE OF MY BLOG LIFE STARTS..... NOW!!