Today a couple came in the sub-hub while we were really busy. When they got to the register I was in the zone, and then the guy started to sign at me. I don't know why, but I was petrified. I eventually got back in the zone and started to sign to him.
He was really excited and it made me happy, but I was so nervous I was shaking. He was really sweet and when his wife came back over he was telling her how excited he was that I could sign. It made me feel really good, and it made me really miss ASL. Then I rung him up wrong.... but that's not the point.
The point is that I miss ASL and I need to get back into the swing of signing.
YUH!!!
Thursday, September 6, 2012
Crystal Euphoria
I've been working a lot more hours lately because school started and I'm the only person that isn't going. Normally this wouldn't bother me because it's not like my job is particularly hard, but I'm now working mornings. This is really my problem. I hate waking up before 10. I can do it, and honestly I'm very chipper about it, but once I've been up for a couple of hours I'm cranky and bitter for the rest of the day.
This does not turn out to be a good thing when I have to work two 9 hour shifts back to back, and then get up on the third day to work 11:30-4. I'm so cranky that I don't even know what to do with myself. I get home around 9 pm, eat something fast, curl up in bed, and wait to fall asleep. That's right I have to wait to fall asleep because I'm still not able to sleep like a normal human being. Then I have to get up at nine to be at work at 11:30.
Life is a joke.
Skylar Padia this is where I realized I miss you a lot a lot. I happen to depend on you knowing whats going on and then telling me to suck it up because I'm the one who chose to work these hours. I know that you'd tell me to ask for less work or quit. You'd also be here to tell me that I'm being a huge bitch to everybody that I come across and I need to get myself in check before I do/say something I'll regret. SEE, I know what you'd say, it's just not the same without you actually here to tell me.
I'm going to have to start parenting myself.... Oh GOD, I'm going to lead my self down the road of sex, drugs, and seclusion. (Is it really seclusion if I'm going to have to be around people to have sex and know a drug dealer?) Welp! way to go, you left and now I'm going to have to become a delinquent with no hope of a future.
That's me is a few years. I'm with my dealer, Spike. We do drugs on the weekend together because we have nothing better to do and I get free crack out of it. Sweet :D
LOVE Y'ALL,
ME (formally Crystina, but now called Crystal Euphoria on account of me liking the sex and drugs)
This does not turn out to be a good thing when I have to work two 9 hour shifts back to back, and then get up on the third day to work 11:30-4. I'm so cranky that I don't even know what to do with myself. I get home around 9 pm, eat something fast, curl up in bed, and wait to fall asleep. That's right I have to wait to fall asleep because I'm still not able to sleep like a normal human being. Then I have to get up at nine to be at work at 11:30.
Life is a joke.
Skylar Padia this is where I realized I miss you a lot a lot. I happen to depend on you knowing whats going on and then telling me to suck it up because I'm the one who chose to work these hours. I know that you'd tell me to ask for less work or quit. You'd also be here to tell me that I'm being a huge bitch to everybody that I come across and I need to get myself in check before I do/say something I'll regret. SEE, I know what you'd say, it's just not the same without you actually here to tell me.
I'm going to have to start parenting myself.... Oh GOD, I'm going to lead my self down the road of sex, drugs, and seclusion. (Is it really seclusion if I'm going to have to be around people to have sex and know a drug dealer?) Welp! way to go, you left and now I'm going to have to become a delinquent with no hope of a future.
LOVE Y'ALL,
ME (formally Crystina, but now called Crystal Euphoria on account of me liking the sex and drugs)
Saturday, September 1, 2012
High School
I've had a lot of people ask me if I miss high school, or really just school in general. I must say, NOT AT ALL!!!
I've come to learn, from my siblings and talks with other babies, that DHS has gone even farther down the crapper. They have colored parking lots now and the teachers have taken over what was once the student parking lot. Mr. Fredrick is now the special ed teacher (I find this hilariously awesome). Kontz isn't really as important as she use to be. No frontal hugging (WTF?). Also, I hear the pep rallies suck even more than they used to. This all makes me very happy that I got out when I did.
But in all seriousness, I really don't miss it. It's not even because I don't have classes or homework. I really can't explain how I feel. I just know that I don't miss it. I know I will later, but for right now I'm really enjoying not having to worry so much.
With that being said, I do miss all of my friends. I'm still getting used to looking at the parking lot and not seeing Anna's car. After school I see new kids walking down the street and I'm like "who the crap is that?" When I see people on the dock my first reaction is to get angry because I don't know most of them and they're on MY Dock. It's just getting out of that mind set that's going to take me a while. Soon they're all just going to turn into annoying high school kids that wont cross the street fast enough, and I'll want to run them over.
I'm really happy for everyone that's in college right now. I love reading about all of your classes and adventures that you've already had. It's comforting to know that nobody has had a melt down yet or anything. I wish y'all the best of luck this semester.
LOVE Y'ALL
-ME! (Crystina)
Tuesday, August 28, 2012
7 -_-
A couple of days ago I had a few people ask me if I had lost weight. One of them was Daniel's grandmother so her input is a little iffy, no matter how sassy and cute it was. The other two were Alex M. and my grandmother. So I guess I really do look like I've lost weight because my grandmother never gives compliments unless she means them. In fact you're more likely to get "mija that shirt looks a little small. Maybe you need to lose weight." No joke, one time her exact words were "Tina, you and Title are getting too big, you need to start exercising. I want my grand-daughters to be healthy." I was 14!!! Way to make your grand-daughter feel awesome at an already horrible stage in life. -__-
ANYWAY, I digress...
So I was feeling pretty good about myself for the past couple of days, until I got on a scale today. Turns out I've gained 7 pounds. Just ew. I don't understand how I look like I've lost weight. Crazy old people and Alex.
Maybe I should join Title in her animal run... I just hate running a lot. Really, I'm more of a couch and potato chip kind of person. Exercise is stupid. Oh well I'll figure out something... At times like these I turn to pinterest for fun ideas.
Ok it's back to work for me, but I thought that I'd end on a happy note because this has just been a lot of complaining. So I give you the funniest thing I've seen all day XD
LOVE Y'ALL!
-ME (Crystina)
ANYWAY, I digress...
So I was feeling pretty good about myself for the past couple of days, until I got on a scale today. Turns out I've gained 7 pounds. Just ew. I don't understand how I look like I've lost weight. Crazy old people and Alex.
Maybe I should join Title in her animal run... I just hate running a lot. Really, I'm more of a couch and potato chip kind of person. Exercise is stupid. Oh well I'll figure out something... At times like these I turn to pinterest for fun ideas.
Ok it's back to work for me, but I thought that I'd end on a happy note because this has just been a lot of complaining. So I give you the funniest thing I've seen all day XD
LOVE Y'ALL!
-ME (Crystina)
Monday, August 27, 2012
clean
SCHOOL STARTED!!!!! You know what that means? It means that on Monday, Wednesday, and Friday I get the house to myself!!!!! Kids are at school, parents at work, an I'm enjoying my days off :D. So what am I doing?
MAKING A LIST!!! I actually do this a lot. Ask anybody that knows me, I'm lazy and forget things way to easily. Lists help me. As you can see I've already started the list and hopefully I get most of it done today. I'll keep you posted on that.
I also started cleaning off my walls. Ive decided to move around my room again and I felt like the stuff on the walls shaped where things went, so I'm starting fresh.
Turns out you shouldn't glue things on your wall because they wont come off easily. Wish somebody told me that 5 years ago. Oh well, I'll just work on that Wednesday.
There is now a huge pile of letters and pictures that I need to go through in a corner on my dresser. I think I'll save all of that for a day later down the road. I have a couple of ideas for them, but I'm not sure how to go about picking which ones to use.
As for my list...
I didn't finish all of it. I'm ashamed to say that I got distracted by online shopping and Amateur Surgeon 2 for a couple of hours. But still, I got a lot more done than I would have if I had followed through with my original plan to just stay in bed and sleep all day.
WELP! That's it for the day. The kids came home for school and destroyed my quite and when my parents told me I couldn't stick them outside for a few more hours I gave up. I feel rather accomplished though :) Tomorrow it's a 9 hour work day... yay -_-
Love y'all
-ME (Crystina)
I also started cleaning off my walls. Ive decided to move around my room again and I felt like the stuff on the walls shaped where things went, so I'm starting fresh.
BEFORE
AFTER
Turns out you shouldn't glue things on your wall because they wont come off easily. Wish somebody told me that 5 years ago. Oh well, I'll just work on that Wednesday.
Just a few of my favorite letters and pictures
There is now a huge pile of letters and pictures that I need to go through in a corner on my dresser. I think I'll save all of that for a day later down the road. I have a couple of ideas for them, but I'm not sure how to go about picking which ones to use.
As for my list...
WELP! That's it for the day. The kids came home for school and destroyed my quite and when my parents told me I couldn't stick them outside for a few more hours I gave up. I feel rather accomplished though :) Tomorrow it's a 9 hour work day... yay -_-
Love y'all
-ME (Crystina)
Sunday, August 26, 2012
Just to let you know
...I changed the template of my blog because I get bored easily.
I'm reorganizing my room and taking everything off my walls, so tomorrow's post should be interesting. That's right, I'm promising you and update tomorrow! With pictures and sentimental memories.
OK, I'm doe for the night. I'm going to try and sleep. Nightnight!!!
I'm reorganizing my room and taking everything off my walls, so tomorrow's post should be interesting. That's right, I'm promising you and update tomorrow! With pictures and sentimental memories.
OK, I'm doe for the night. I'm going to try and sleep. Nightnight!!!
Monday, August 13, 2012
Thoughts 1
These past couple of weeks I have been doing a lot of thinking. I've been thinking about my friends and family and life and myself. Most of my musing has led me to some big decisions. And others have just thrown me down a path of more questions and thoughts.
I think it's time that I let everybody know my biggest decision so far. I'm not going to college. There, I said it and it's in the open now. Don't worry I'm not going to waste my life sitting around watching tv and eating. I'm going to work for a semester and then go to college. I had been thinking a lot about the plans that I had for my college life and I quickly came to the realization that I had none. I didn't have a plan for a major, I didn't have any desire to apply for FASFA, I didn't even want to think about living on campus, an I didn't want to worry about actually doing my work.
Ever since I started thinking about college I had said that I wanted to take time off before going. I think the only reason I applied us because all of my friends were and they were telling me to as well. I know this isn't a bad thing, at least you weren't pleasuring me into the hard meth, but honestly that's the only reason I applied.
Then I followed through with trying to pick a major because everybody else was. I decided I was going to live in a dorm, even though I had no desire to and I knew I could stay at home for free, because everybody else was looking at dorms. I just followed behind everybody else.
However, over the summer I didn't spend too much time thinking about college and the less time I spent on it the less I like the idea of going. Not because I'm scared or because I found a little freedom. It was more because there wasn't anybody to push me through my decisions and tell me what they thought I should do. It was then that I realized what was happening. I was just going through the motions like a puppet and I don't think that's right.
I think college isn't right for me until I decide to get up and apply for classes and FASFA myself, without people telling me that I need to. Once college starts I won't have my friends to push me to study or go to class or manage time. I'll be totally responsible for that myself and I'm not ready for that.
Why start freshman year of college avoiding classes and wasting $8,000 because I failed my first year? I'd much rather go in ready to learn and take care of things myself.
So, I'm going to stay home this semester and work. I'll save the money that I'm not using on bills and when the time comes move out. I'll help my mom with taking the kids to school and I'll pull more hours at the sub-hub so Josh can have real father time with his child. I'll also go insane from staying in my parents house and still having to live by their rules. I'll want to kill my siblings and I'll want to stay out of the house as much as possible. I honestly think this is the kind of push I need.
My dad says I'm not allowed to stay out of college for more than a year and honestly I don't plan on it. I just need a little time to figure my shit out and then I'll jump into that pool head first. Don't fret my lovelies I'm not killing my future I'm just letting it sit on the side lines and learn from the game before sending it out into the cold harsh world (it's late. So just... Don't judge and pretend that made sense or whatever).
With that I leave you for the night.
LOVE,
Me! (Crystina)
I think it's time that I let everybody know my biggest decision so far. I'm not going to college. There, I said it and it's in the open now. Don't worry I'm not going to waste my life sitting around watching tv and eating. I'm going to work for a semester and then go to college. I had been thinking a lot about the plans that I had for my college life and I quickly came to the realization that I had none. I didn't have a plan for a major, I didn't have any desire to apply for FASFA, I didn't even want to think about living on campus, an I didn't want to worry about actually doing my work.
Ever since I started thinking about college I had said that I wanted to take time off before going. I think the only reason I applied us because all of my friends were and they were telling me to as well. I know this isn't a bad thing, at least you weren't pleasuring me into the hard meth, but honestly that's the only reason I applied.
Then I followed through with trying to pick a major because everybody else was. I decided I was going to live in a dorm, even though I had no desire to and I knew I could stay at home for free, because everybody else was looking at dorms. I just followed behind everybody else.
However, over the summer I didn't spend too much time thinking about college and the less time I spent on it the less I like the idea of going. Not because I'm scared or because I found a little freedom. It was more because there wasn't anybody to push me through my decisions and tell me what they thought I should do. It was then that I realized what was happening. I was just going through the motions like a puppet and I don't think that's right.
I think college isn't right for me until I decide to get up and apply for classes and FASFA myself, without people telling me that I need to. Once college starts I won't have my friends to push me to study or go to class or manage time. I'll be totally responsible for that myself and I'm not ready for that.
Why start freshman year of college avoiding classes and wasting $8,000 because I failed my first year? I'd much rather go in ready to learn and take care of things myself.
So, I'm going to stay home this semester and work. I'll save the money that I'm not using on bills and when the time comes move out. I'll help my mom with taking the kids to school and I'll pull more hours at the sub-hub so Josh can have real father time with his child. I'll also go insane from staying in my parents house and still having to live by their rules. I'll want to kill my siblings and I'll want to stay out of the house as much as possible. I honestly think this is the kind of push I need.
My dad says I'm not allowed to stay out of college for more than a year and honestly I don't plan on it. I just need a little time to figure my shit out and then I'll jump into that pool head first. Don't fret my lovelies I'm not killing my future I'm just letting it sit on the side lines and learn from the game before sending it out into the cold harsh world (it's late. So just... Don't judge and pretend that made sense or whatever).
With that I leave you for the night.
LOVE,
Me! (Crystina)
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